wow! its been exactly two months since i last posted, i didn't mean for that to happen....

but anyway...

yesterday i was reading my book, Leota's Garden, which is about an old lady who has broken relationships with her children and her husband has long since passed away. by God's grace, Leota's granddaughter decides its about time she got to know this grandma of hers that was so estranged over the yrs and as it turns out, they both needed eachother in their lives. of course Grandma Leota is well into her 80s and she passes away near the end of the book.

it got me thinking why does God let us love others and then takes these people away from us? i knew right away that what i was thinking was wrong but it took me a bit to deduce why. (since i had a bad feeling in my stomach i decided to go for a walk while i thought) i had to remind myself, sina, how would you like it if you went through life never being loved by others because they were afraid to lose you?

more importantly i reminded myself that first and foremost i was put on this earth to further the kingdom of God and to glorify Him. i guess God gives me love as a tool to help me with this task.

i suddenly felt strangely segregated from all of the bustling students around me, and at the same time i felt this unusual sense of compassion for them.

i guess it all boils down to trusting in God and praying for the strength to glorify Him in front of my classmates.

in answer to the question that was asked at burlington youth group sunday night, I trust God with all my heart...well as much as this sinful heart will allow....

In light of those who have justed started school and those who will be starting school very soon, my personal definition of a procrastinator:

The you of today who does not care about the you of tomorrow and who never learns from the you of yesterday.

So its not the best english but ... its deep

Has anyone heard of that spray that is used to dull your sense of taste and smell so that you can't crave food and in turn you will lose weight?

Well I heard a commercial for it this morning and my first thought was, hmmm, thats pretty smart...must be nice to be able to think in those channels.

Then I thought...waaaait a minute...thats completely ridiculous.  God gives us so many blessings in our lives and of these blessings we very easily take for granted our 5 senses. People in our society would be willing to dull the God-given senses of taste and smell because they cannot control their eating habits??? I know a couple people in my life who would give anything to be able to smell anything at all.

Maybe its not that big a deal, you could probably compare this to a billion other things that people can get away with these days.  I just don't understand it I guess....